I'm insane, ask me how

[noelia_g]

Well, apparently, the answer is: very.

 

Past the border of insanity, and getting faster.

You all know I'm not a native English speaker. Yes, I complain about this a lot, so you know. You probably all also know, that I write stories in English, and generally like English language (duh! went to study it at the university).

The thing is, I like English better than Polish.

That's not that abnormal, right? Everything seems better if it's not your own, right? The greener grass, and all that crap.

And some of you know that when I role play, I tend to speak in English as my characters. My co-players don't seem to mind, they started to talk in English too. It seems okay, if you play in BtVS rpg to speak in English, cuz you can use buffyisms, and willowisms, and so on, and it's better to say Slayer or Watcher than those stupid Polish ones.

But the truly scary thing is... I think in English.

Really. I recently caught myself on that.

When I plan o story, or speech, or article, or whatever, I first think of it in English. Than, if it's needed, I *translate* my thoughts into Polish.

And today I caught myself doing one more thing. Arguing with myself. In English. Aloud.

When I called myself a moron, I figured something is wrong....

And I can't my shrink, cuz the last time I talked to him about my star wars addiction, he started to borrow X-wing books from me.

Help?

Well, okay. Going back to smutathon entry... I need to finish it today... and right now it's still het! Yay me!

Oh, and almost forgot! Two silvers, one gold! Yay for Otylia!

 

Comments

[beadattitude.livejournal.com]

Sweetie, you're not crazy. It's pretty normal if you're immersing yourself into a culture to think and even dream in the language...and I'd say you were pretty well immersed in the Buffyverse.

I think as long as the arguements you're having with yourself don't take on seperate personalities or voices, you're good to go.

[noelia-g.livejournal.com]

I don't think it's only Buffyverse doing...

I started to really learn English about three years ago, so it was pretty much intense, to get to the stage I'm on now. For the last year and a half I hadn't read a book in Polish, only in English. That had to do something to my brain...

And now, no separate personalities that I've noticed... Just thinking aloud and not being happy with that train of thoughts.

So, I'm normal?
Blah :D

[beadattitude.livejournal.com]

No, baby, you're not normal. Who else do you know has to wear protective gear to read fics and watch the Olympics?

There. Does that help?

[noelia-g.livejournal.com]

Well, okay, you reassured me... a little.

:::snuggles:::

But that doesn't necessarily means I'm insane... Just that I'm a little bit hyperactive after drinking coffee combined with something that excites me, like fics or Olympics. And that I have a tendency to concussions. It's not insane, just... not normal.

Well, okay, I'm not normal.
Yay me.

[beadattitude.livejournal.com]

::does dance of insanity for Noelia::

[noelia-g.livejournal.com]

:::with look of determination on her face puts on the helmet:::

:::carefully places padding all around computer:::

:::takes a gulp of coffee:::

:::happily copies the dance:::

[beadattitude.livejournal.com]

There's my girl. Insanity maybe, but safety first.

[cala-jane.livejournal.com]

The worst thing is, that you need to speak in Polish when a character has a Shcotish acshcent.
And it'sh funny.

[noelia-g.livejournal.com]

It's not the fact that *I* need to talk in Polish then.

It's that my coplayers laugh the asses off if I try Scottish accent.

If I do Queen's English, nothing is wrong. If I do Texan, they don't seem to notice.

But Scottish sends them into giggle mode. Why?